Tuesday, March 8, 2011

this quote has been following me around.

“I have a history of making decisions very quickly about men. I have always fallen in love fast and without measuring risks. I have a tendency not only to see the best in everyone, but to assume that everyone is emotionally capable of reaching his highest potential. I have fallen in love more times than I care to count with the highest potential of a man, rather than with the man himself, and I have hung on to the relationship for a long time (sometimes far too long) waiting for the man to ascend to his own greatness. Many times in romance I have been a victim of my own optimism.”

- Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat, Pray, Love

...and it's kinda weird, because I can recognize the same behavior in myself. Okaaaay everyone who keeps telling me to read Eat, Pray, Love...I give up. I'll read it. After I finish my sci-fi book. :)

Thursday, March 3, 2011

Sometimes the Universe is so spot on that I don't know why I ever questioned it.

All the years and all the tears... boy, Crystal, aren't they gonna be
shocked when they realize that nothing was ever lost - not friendships, not opportunities, not love - nothing?

And that they already had all those things they went searching for?

That never once were we disappointed in them?  

That nothing had to be proved, learned, or earned?  

That all along they were, in fact, the person they had always dreamed of becoming?

Glad we caught up with you when we did!!


   The Universe

Crystal, there are only happy endings... if you believe in endings.

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

this is awesome.

Another thing I am proudly addicted to: TED talks.

This is the one I watched tonight. If you have 17 minutes, listen to the "1000 Awesome Things" guy talk. I was so excited when I saw it, because I subscribe to him on my Google Reader, and I always find myself nodding my head to the everything he posts - from "the perfect ketchup to fry ratio" to "the cold side of the pillow," it's all so true, and so great to acknowledge the little things that make life great. I think he's pretty awesome.

I'm not an addict.

I've been watching a whole hell of a lot of Glee in the past few weeks. In fact, before I went home for Christmas, I had only seen one episode. On an airplane. In and out of consciousness. But when my sister got the entire first season on DVDs, I saw this as my big opportunity to join the gazillions of "gleeks!!!"  I watched several episodes consecutively, until it was time for me to come back to CA...in which I took about a two week hiatus, UNTIL

I found a great website that allowed me to catch up on all the episodes I had missed!  Needless to say, I've now seen every episode, and am impatiently waiting for the season to begin again.  Now that I've cut my cable cord (HA!), I'll have to go to a friend's place to watch. I think it'll make the Glee experience more enjoyable - like that party they had on The Office. Except, it will be fun.

I don't tend to watch much TV on an actual television, but I've done this with several TV shows through either DVDs or online - after never having watched an episode, become completely immersed in it until I've seen every episode. Gossip Girl, Californication, now Glee...what does that say about me?! My friend Katie B once told me that I have an addictive personality. She clarified that she meant that in both senses of the word - as becoming addicted to something easily, but also that my personality can be addicting to others. I'll take the good with the (potentially) bad. Anyway, I've started knitting while watching. So that means I'm actually being productive right?!

However, if you don't feel like sitting down in front of the tube, I highly recommend checking out "Stranger in a Strange Land." I think I may also be addicted to this book. There have been times when I run into my room when I have a minute or two just to read a page so I can have a little more of the story. So good! So good! So good!

Another harmless addiction I'm quickly developing is to my new (FREE) blu ray player. I told my friend today this has been the best thing that's ever happened to me. Seriously - this amazing little box connects to my Netflix "Watch Instantly" queue, and to my Pandora stations (that I'm currently listening to of course), and to the Blockbuster On Demand. I haven't used that yet, but how could it NOT be amazing? Especially when I have $50 free to use.  SO many movies. Since I got the blu ray last Tuesday, I've already watched:
  • Citizen Kane
  • The Proposal
  • Meet Me In St. Louis
  • King of Kong: A Fistful of Quarters
  • Dear John
  • St. Elmo's Fire
  • TBD movie that I'll probably watch tonight
So, I suppose those are my latest addictions. The whole time I've been writing this, that K's Choice song has been in my head...but I swear I'm really not an addict.

Thursday, January 13, 2011


Today I woke up with a horrible feeling in my throat that has throughout the day spread into my chest.  There's a certain weakness I feel in all of my extremities, and it hurts to think.  This can only mean one thing: I'm totally sick.  My initial thought was, "I deserve this."  I've been having so much fun with life lately...

Awards shows:

Yachts and brunching:

Talk show with free prizes:

 It almost seemed like life was so great that I needed something to go wrong in order to bring me back down to remind myself that I'm not living in a dream world.  Cue today.  After a fun night tasting beer and food with some great people, I woke up to find myself in a trance like state.  After thinking that I knew something like this would be coming to me, I figured out why: it's because I haven't been making my Vitamineral Green breakfast smoothies for myself since I've been back from visiting my family!  Now this stuff, it's like a Green Jesus.  It brings you back to life, and I crave it every morning.

Smoothie recipe:
  • Handful of crushed ice
  • A bunch of frozen wild blueberries
  • One almost ripe banana
  • Spoonful of Vitamineral Green
  • Spoonful of hemp protein powder
  • Spoonful of natural creamy peanut butter
  • 3/4 - 1 cup of almond milk
Blend until smoooooth.  It looks like a dark blue-ish green sludgefest, and my mouth is usually a similar color when I'm done drinking it, but I don't mind.

Anyway, I didn't have some of the ingredients, so I went to the grocery store at 7 a.m. in my pj's (but I put pants on) to get them.  I worked for a little, but like I said - thinking is hard right now, so I've been mostly taking it easy.  Searching to all ends of the internet:

Plus much time spent wasted on facebook, netflix, and gchatting.  Not to mention the three movies I've watched:

I don't think this requires any justification.  I want to live my life wrapped around Ryan Reynolds.

This was recommended to me by a friend whose taste I tend to agree with.  The first questions he asked me were, 1) Do you hate villians?, 2) Do you go for the underdog, and 3) What are your thoughts on Donkey Kong?  Since I answered Yes, Yes, and AWESOME, respectively, we knew I would like it.  Three things I liked about this movie:
  1. The song, "You're the Best Around" plays several times - and I love this song!!
  2. I almost cried when the underdog cried while talking about his craft (being of course, Donkey Kong playing skillz)
  3.  I wish I was passionate about anything in my life as much as these people are about their video gaming
This movie was on TMC when I woke up from my glorious two hour nap.  I'm watching it right now, it puts the life and decisions of one of the most controversial president in a different perspective, and almost makes me feel bad for the guy.  If that was the goal, then I just fell waay into that trap.  But WOW - Josh Brolin does a great impression.

Maybe I needed this day. To recover.  Maybe it was my bed's way of asking me to spend more time with it.  Done and done.

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

I want to learn this too.

I've learned

I've learned that you cannot make someone love you.
All you can do is be someone who can be loved.
The rest is up to them.
I've learned that no matter how much I care,
some people just don't care back.
And it's not the end of the world.
I've learned that it takes years to build up trust,
and only seconds to destroy it.
I've learned that it's not what you have in your life,
but who you have in your life that counts.
I've learned that you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes.
After that, you'd better know something.
I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself
to the best others can do,
but to the best you can do.
I've learned that it's not what happens to people,
It's what they do about it.
I've learned that no matter how thin you slice it,
there are always two sides.
I've learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words.
It may be the last time you see them.
I've learned that you can keep going
long after you think you can't.
I've learned that heroes are the people who do what has to be done
When it needs to be done
regardless of the consequences.
I've learned that there are people who love you dearly,
but just don't know how to show it.
I've learned that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry,
but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.
I've learned that true friendship continues to grow even over the longest distance.
Same goes for true love.
I've learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to
doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
I've learned that no matter how good a friend is,
they're going to hurt you every once in a while
and you must forgive them for that.
I've learned that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others.
Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.
I've learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken,
the world doesn't stop for your grief.
I've learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are,
but we are responsible for who we become.
I've learned that just because two people argue, it doesn't mean that they don't love each other.
And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do.
I've learned that sometimes you have to put the individual
ahead of their actions.
I've learned that two people can look at the exact same thing
and see something totally different.
I've learned that no matter the consequences,
those who are honest with themselves get farther in life.
I've learned that your life can be changed in a matter of hours
by people who don't even know you.
I've learned that even when you think you have no more to give,
when a friend cries out to you,
you will find the strength to help.
I've learned that writing,
as well as talking,
can ease emotional pains.
I've learned that the people you care most about in life
are taken from you too soon.
I've learned that it's hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice
and not hurting people's feelings and standing up for what you believe.
I've learned to love
and be loved.
I've learned...

Omer B. Washington

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

2010 -> 2011

From one of my favorite authors - two blog posts about closing cycles in 2010 and conserving our path in 2011.  I hope these words resonate with you as much as they did with me!!